i seriously have no idea wat m i doing all this for.. getting myself involved in ndp, being a YA, agreeing to be in the committee for the camp. thats abt all dat is on my mind now, certainly there are more bt i guess its too private to be shared. dere is nothin much dat i enjoy nowadays, dats why life sucks for mi now..

i noe i m not the worst, bt i jus wanna complain. i tink its lik the 10005340534534 times dat i complained abt it alr.. =X

CCA was once enjoyable bt now it jus feels like its an obligation to go for it. i will drag my feet with a gloomy face and go for trgs and activities. life seems so screwed. maybe its jus something wrong wif my mindset, maybe i should jus learn from LMS and IAC; try to think that these activities will increase my experience and enhance my knowledge, i can get to noe more frens, i can help to guide and all those shit stuffs.

hahahas.. duh..i m jus having some pre cca syndrome.. LOL..
n you. you walked and u saw. u turn, stared and walked away. bt you actualli asked if i was de one dat u saw. i didnt noe that i was so unimportant that somehow there wasnt much of an impression that you actually saw mi. sometimes its jus dat little move dat one can do to make others feel neglected. fine, if dats wat i mean to u. god, stop leaving mi with all these crap. i dun wanna blame myself for not treasuring n cherishing. its jus so !@$@#$#$%^&%.