hais...
time is passin fast...
at the speed of light..
so fast dat i cant hold on to..

---
sumtymes ignorance is bliss...
ur heart is always the safest place...
noone can harm u except for urself..

---
its just a facade...
full of deceptions... 7:31 AM

went fer n0mad ytd...
the fugitive n windows was the nicest...
n finale was not bad hahas..
its was not dat bad tt i expected..
slightly beta...

i lik the windows idea... though i dun understand until i saw the guide tt we were given and of cox the erm...wats tt ...the thing below la...see fer urself..gt it from other ppl blog..hehes.. its veri meaningful..

windowss]]*

i kept thinking.thinking.
thinking. thinking.thinking what would happen.
thinking what would happen to us.
what would happen to us if we suddenly BOOM!and disappear.

where will we be?
in heaven?
in mars?i
n outer-space?
i really really wonder.

BOMP! i landed on a hard surface.
i stood up. rubbed my eyes and started looking everywhere.
where was i?
i trembled in fear.
i felt that i was like in a dark box.
everywhere was dark.
i felt as though walls were falling on me.
i heard sounds.
people stomping. people clapping.
but where?!
i shook my head in fear.
i hear sounds but see no one.
i knelt down and started crying.
why was this happening?its just like a nightmare!
i just sat there and wondered what was going to happen next.

---
looking out from my window.
looking at the deep blue sea.
how i wonder why.
why must you do this?
you stole my heart and tore it into pieces.
although you tried to wipe my tears away.
i rejected your hand.
suddenlyi saw a rainbow
guess. after a storm
there will be happy endings.
but the scar still remains.
never to be erased.

---
what am i doing.
why am i walking.

what am i looking at.
why am i listening.

what. why.
why. what.

oh. i am confusing.

and now
look out of the window.
forget everything.

the blue sky
the golden sun
the green meadows
and the colourful flower

oh such a lovely scene.

-windows]]* 10:28 PM

y liddat de...
y liddat de...

:D nvm...later is gona be nomad..
hehes... ppl say quite nice...
hope it wud be nice..
today is the last day fer nomad..
yeaps...
performers n helpers..jiayoous ba...

:DDDDDDDDDDD 10:00 PM

came bac from kbox jus now
hahas....freezingly cold dere... bt fun hahas..

ytd de nomad rehearsals.. i was so damn high...
dunno y... i was so sadistic..lols...

yaya....i wanna amend my swearin session...
my swearin onli applies to all lessons besides physics
cox physics is so boring...
i realli cant stand it... hahas

nomad rehearsels made mi discover lots of things...
hahas..
pls tune in to weilings' discovery channel...

jian!!! jian!!! jian!!!!
y liddat!!!
where gt tis kind of ppl de!!!!
wth!!!!
its worse den i expected!!!!
wadeva u do, i wun be xin ruan... i wun forgiv u too

toeu: sorrisorrisorri... hurtuoncenagain... imacoldbloodedpersonhais... seeinusodepressediosoveriheartbrokenbtidunnowattodo.. everytimeipluckedupcouragetosaywatiwantedtosae... idunnoyistillwasntttbravetosaeit... sorri..killmihitmiscoldmi... maybeiwudfeelbeta.. hais.. 2:37 AM

i was home bac early today...
slept fer a few hrs...

tis is the swearing session by miss tan wei ling..
witnesses pls take note of this...hahas...
i, Tan Wei Ling swear to sleep well every night.
I will be attentive in class.
n wun kip lyin on the table.
if i put my head on table during lesson when teacher is tokin,
pls slap my head n wake mi up...lols...
*session complete*

i wun lie on the table le... i mux listen in class.
i m a gd gall...hehes...

fail emaths test...
hahas... i deserve it...
bt i can pass de... all becox of my careless mistakes...
*slap myself* hahas..

HOHOHO!!
HAHAHA!!
HEHEHE!!

wish myself a gd nites slp n a wonderful day tml... :) 6:27 AM

a sucky day n an enjoyable nite..
hais...
stop callin mi a *******
f*** u
not onli one person lors... still gt some more...
idiots...

dun wan sae le la...
everytime dey mention..
tears will just overwhelm my eyes..
bt its controllable...hahas..!!!!!

had tuition in the afternoon..
i was so damn tired..
my brain cant work
de teacher was at a loss to teach mi...
cox he teach le i still dunno
kip answerin wrongly...lolx...
den the person beside mi kept luffin...
ahhas..

den i went fer campfire...!!!!
damn high...
we exchanged a beret from the hongkong scouts
its damn chio..!!!
lols...
hahas...

wish myself a gd nites slp n a wonderful day tml... : ) 7:39 AM

tired...
had guides training..
focused on drills..
startin was abit luan...
bt dey improved...: )
hmm..left the belok...
hais..
even we cant do it...

hey...i m a slacker...
yea.. wat u wan...
hais...

n ppl... pls respect ppl's privacy... thx..
hais..

probs agn...
why why tell mi why...
HAIS...
stuffin mmyself wif food these days...
GRHHH...
yups... who bu shuang mi, who hate mi, pls just put a deadly pill into mydrink
i can die n u wun be jailed...
hais...

and the campfire... agn so little ppl goin..
i understand u ppl r tired...
wat to do...
hais....

wish myself a gd nites slp n a wonderful day tml... 5:25 AM

wats wrong wif doin my 2nd cca...
i have been neglecting my 2nd cca cox of guides...
so wat if i m a cca leader...
i m still a student...
i nida study n oso nt forgettin my 2nd cca
its a path wich i chose
dun expect mi to cut this path to walk another road...

yeayea... i noe i m a useless **
bt... dunno who can understand how i feel..
nt tt i dun wanna care...hais
when someone ask mi wat problems dey hav...
i cant answer...
bt u wun probably wan mi to go ask dem one by one wat problem dey hav...
even if i asked, would dey tell mi...
wat position am i in to be their confider...
the best i can do is to ask... are u alrite, wat happened..?
yups...
i noe i sux...

useless...hais..
all my fears, my hope n anger has all turned into agony
well...hais....
wateva..
i would be fine after a gd nites slp : )

so wish myself a gd nites slp n a wonderful day tml... 7:54 AM

today i went home damn early!! yeah!! at 4pm..
hahas... ate at pizza hut n went home..
i catched my long awaited noon nap..
i slept fer 3 strght hrs...bt hor gt ppl kip sms mi..
wake mi up...hahas...

i studied my maths... hmm...recovered some knowledge
lols...

derrick rocks...vote fer him kaes..

hehes...
hope tt more ppl will turn up fer the campfire tis saturday...
dun lik last sat so little ppl...
realli veri pathetic lehs...
shout till our throat break oso no use...
hais...yea...so wish fer the best...

hmm.. i dun wanna care abt everythin le...
yea... makes mi feel damn shi bai...
bt wat to do...
kill mi, slice mi, chop mi...
i dun wan tt to happen...bt it did...
wat can i do...
go suicide, go torture myself, cry till my tears dry...?!
yes...well i m not supposed to show tt i m unhappy...
i m happy always... :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

hahas...wish myself a gd nites slp n a wonderful day tml 7:23 AM

today after sch went kfc eat....
yeas... long time nv go eat wif dem le... hahas...
den after dat go popular..

n later bac home...hehes..
i studied chemistry..
bt in the end nothin gets into my head...

hmm... heard tt things r fallin apart...
y not cut mi apart too...
i dun wanna live oso... (jux jk)
sososo... use super glue to paste bac...
which brand beta... UHU or elephant glue?

den things r not within my control now...
run here fly dere everywhere..
shud buy a multi taskin remote control
den wateva thing go where den i oso can control...
sounds cool rite
bt hor...dun hav tis kind of thing la..
my hand so small how to control...
can go fer hand enlargement....hahas...

arghh... i dunno wat i doin...
tokin to myself...
hahas... i m the director of my veri own GOLDEN BRIDGE HOSPITAL..
2 fer 1... two patients come i mian fei take another patient
lols... service veri gd de hors...
asst director is none other den ms lew ss ...lols...

okok... eungh of crappin..
wish myself a gd nites slp n a wonderful day tml... :D 6:51 AM

went to my aunt house today...
tok cok wif my cousins agn...

my cousin is brainwashed by christanity...( quoted by his brother)
hahas...maybe ba...
at first i dun believe dat he is "brainwashed"...
cox i tot its normal to hav a religion
bt the thing is he said " he yao shan rocks"
omg... after dat i believed dat he is ermm....
hahas...

jianhui (his bro) kip scoldin him...
sae he siao le...
kip tokin abt christanity n singing bible songs..
lols...dey 2 damn funni...

so neway... i dun mind dem being christians..
nothin wrong wif dat..
bt y did jianhui had such a big reaction over it...lols

we played lala's guitar...
bt i m such a failure...
dunno how to play...
bt at least gt sound la..hehes...

after dat... went out to eat...
i gt a new line for my phone...
say gd bye to hi cards..
hahas...

u said u cant be healed..
bt y r u here bac agn... pretendin everythin was alrite...
i m feelin damn bad kaes..

wish myself a gd nites slp n a wonderful day tml..: )

7:03 AM

today went for cip..
hahas...quite fun...
ate pizza hut
jolene didi was damn cute...
lolx..

after tt went for bps campfire
10 ppl go onli
den our voice was not dat loud lik b4
everyone was so tired...
bt we did enthu la...
we shouted n screamed n cheered...

suddenly mi n shiuan missed the previous mdms...
missed how much fun we had durin the campfire we attended...

sorri... i wasnt dere when u needed mi..
i noe no matter how mani sorries i say
it wun salvage the situation
bt..i m at a loss

well...wish myself a gd nites slp n a nice day tml : ) 7:59 AM

y liddat de...
y liddat de
y liddat de
y liddat de 8:20 AM

today is the farewell party...
startin i was reall damn worried..
den gt some screw ups...
actualli wanted play games de...
bt the seniors have to go early..so cancelled it..
actualli i tink tis farewell party is abit i dunno how to sae..
ahhas... bt the last part was quite nice la... the speech n especially the videos.

after the whole thing..i was quite happy cox another thing settled le..
wootx.. something off my mind..
hmm... hope the seniors n mdms enjoyed the party..

nowadays..life is not smooth...
bt i shud understand tt its not everytime tt u can get wat u wan...
life is full of ups n downs..

yeps..
today mood nt bad la..
bt fer the upcomin campfire
more n more ppl cant go..
how...oh god...hais

well... tml den tink ba...hahas...wish myself a gd nites slp, a wonderful day tmr.. 7:06 AM

i m freakin tired...!!!
today after sch do sounvenirs...
do do do... until veri late ...
do until f here f dere..hahas...
i m so bitchy...

den after tt still go laminate...
luckily gt yiliang pei mi..
we was standin in the shop watching de tong xin yuan for 45 mins ba..
de uncle do finish le den he tell mi $36
omg...i gt not enugh money den lent frm yl
bt add together oso not enugh...
bt the uncle veri gd let us owe him...$10 lehx
hahas...the uncle rox

tiring... reach home damn late le...
hais...

wish myself a gd day tml, gd life n gd nites slp tonitex.... :) 7:18 AM

i wan bac my happiness my freedom..
the things i have lost...
everything..

hais...its time fer mi to grow up n be more sensible ba
what is mine will be mine..wat isnt wudnt be...
my life is controlled by mi...
if i fail, i fail it wif my own hands...

i m havin serious attitude problems..
yeah...i feel lik a bitch..
vulgarities here dere everywhere...

hmm...dun tink too much..
i shall block my brain den...
i cant help it..

i dun feel lik living in this world animore...
yeayea...take a knife n kill mi...
wootx... : ) 7:42 AM

mixed feelings
pissed? sad? wateva
once i start i cant stop :'(
i noe i m temperamental nowadays..
sorri 4 dat..
sorri for those i gave attitude to...
didnt mean to do tt...

i dun knoe if i m up to it... 6:42 AM

One day, a bull told the ostrich,''Eat my shit, then you can fly..''
The ostrich has always been yearning to fly,
therefore it did what was told.
And surprsingly, after eating the bull's shit,
it flew up a few metres above the ground and fell.
Angrily, it went to look for the bull and asked why it can only flew to that extent.

The bull told the ostrich,''If you wanna fly higher, you have to eat more..''
Indeed, after eating a huge portion of the bull's shit,
the ostrich flew up to the sky, just like any other bird.
After flying for a hundred metres or so,
the ostrich fell and broke it's neck..

Moral of the story: Bullshit can get you up there, but it does not last long. You can bluff all the way up,but, it's only for a moment.

Reflection: Believe in yourself. You will get what you deserve...=)

taken from lala's blog...:) 8:32 AM

learnt alot today...in lessons in the heart to heart talk..

hmm...after some reflection.
i tink its our fault too..
n oso sorri for botherin cindy abt tis..
we ought to be a united batch... bt well...

" unity "

after the talk...
let bygones be bygones..( issit lik this ) lols...
we shall start anew... a brand new united batch of leaders...
we wun let our mdms down...
we can live up to their expectations to bring guides to a higher lvl..

so stay cheerful.. be optimistic... hav a high morale... 7:24 AM

my left arm is so pain...
wateva i do..it will have tt feelin if i move my arm...
so uncomfortable..not exactly pain...sucks.. 9:23 AM

i m back to sch..!!!
hahas... today is ipw presentation day..
my grp 0ok l0rs... ahhas...every time last minute w0rk de..
so happi dat we dun nid attend the st00pid chinese less0n..
its s0 b0rin... its jux a period 4 us t0 sleep.. i can sleep thr0ugh0ut his less0n..
hahas...

today is land r0d..
wootx... congrats to the top 5 p0sts...n 0thers 2..hahas

hais...
veri disppointed in the farewell party..
abit c0k up..
s0 i tink it wouldnt be an interesting 0ne lik last yr..
s0rrie..seni0rs, feel bad for holding such a sh0rt farewell party..
bt we will d0 0ur best to make it fun..

n oso .. dunno y n0w kip handin things late...
hais... abit irresponsible.. : (
well ..nvm..wat done is done..
deal wif the present probs den.. : ) 6:10 AM

a few days nv blog le..hehes... miss mi?? lols..
ytd the "commisioner" came.. or is she just an observer..wateva..
hahas..the colours was terrible.. the flag gt stucked agn..
bt the patrol dynamics was fun..
we did our patrol photo frame, damn nice..orchid patrol rox kaes...
lols... the other patrols gona kill mi... hahas ...girl guides rox...
ytd durin lesson time had fever...
luckily gt panadol den my fever subside...

i slept damn early ytd... at 9.40 ba...
bt den tis morning fever agn...
nv go to sch today... u all mux hav missed mi...hehes (bhb)

hahas... wish myself free from illnesses and have a gd nites slp..and most imptly a nice nice day tml.. : ) 4:38 AM

went f0r tuition early in the morning..
ps: sorri h0r, make u starve, lolx...
after tuition went home for a while
den go 0ut agn t0 amk central to meet jolene
went t0 watch initial d wif dem..
it was quite nice, jay n edison is s0 shuai n cuteee!!
lols..
even my br0 agrreed dat dey r shuai...hahas..

after tt went t0 somerset find elaine n weeting...
eat lunch n blablabla..hahas..
den went home..

called m0mmie, actualli dey intended t0 c0me bac t0day...
but l0ng st0ry la..
0n the first day dey went gentin, car sp0iled.. s0 dey went t0 get it fixed...
dde person sae t0day can fixed finish...liarr!!!
s0 mummie n daddie cant c0me bac l0rx..
mommie s0und s0 sad 0n the phone...
she veri w0rried abt us bt we r 0k..hais..
dey didnt enj0yed their trip ba... sad sia
missed mummie n daddie..
h0pe dey can c0me bac tml..

my 3 aunts t00k turns t0 call..0ne after n an0ther..
de last 0ne was my uncle..
thx 4 ur c0ncern... bt dey r n0t bac yet..
i said the same thing to all of dem c0x dey asked the same question
can record d0wn le..
hais... the m0re i say the more sad i feell..
s0 hope tt n00ne calls agn...
shud be n0 le la...

nothin to sae le... wish myself a gd nites slp n a happy reni0un wif m0m n dad tml...:) 7:10 AM

firstly..
sorri for not takin ur call.. cox i dun feel lik tokin le
second..
sorri for not goin fer the class outin.. cox i goin out wif my class gals
thirdly..
mm... i dun go out wif strangers... u wun get to see dis ba...lols...rite fer fun
hmm...still gt wat... nothin le la

lols... kk wish myself a gd nites slp and a wonderful day tml.. 8:59 AM

FRIDAY - awards nite

congrats to those who recieved awards : )

yEStErdAy - commitment bbq

after tuition, faster chiong to meet lionel yuzhe shiuan yi liang
bt den someone was later den mi...hahas
den caught up wif edwin den went to dewei house together..
quite fun la... hahas
played cards... eat...
reached home at 11.00
thx edwin fer sendin mi home...

reached house n gt a shock of my life...i saw five big guys...
hahas... its not burglary...
its my bro's frens
dey r stayin overnite...
i was told by my bro dere is onli 2 frens comin
bt it turn out to be 4 ...
hahas...
dey r lik havin party... eatin chips n drinkin..
hahas....

dats all i hav a gd nites slp... n now someone went to buy my breakfast....erm...cum lunch fer mi...
thx : ) hope u dun lose ur way...lols... 8:45 PM

peeps!

-aurina
-benedict
-bridget
-cheryl
-cheng yin
-chun yin
-cindy
-dewei
-edWin
-elaine
-evelyn
-felicia
-hui ting
-hui xian
-jac
-janns0n
-jas0n
-jiaMin
-j0celyn
-j0lene'l0ver
-karEn
-lalu
-li0nel
-mIng Xuan
-ming zhu
-oliver
-ph0ebe
-peisHan
-sally
-samuel
-selena
-shiUan
-shu yann
-wan j0o
-wee ting
-wei jie
-wei xUn
-yi liaNg'daddie
-yi jUn
-ying xin
-youxu

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